Good to see I found you all. I was getting pretty freaked out by "the event" or whatever you want to call it. It seems like nobody I know knows about it.
And now it's time for my story. First of all, I'm thirteen years old. Yeah. I started getting feelings about "the event" almost three years ago. I didn't know what the hell was wrong with me. Even before that, I've always felt special, as if noone else thought the same way as me. Anyways, after I started feeling the event, I, of course, began to wonder what the hell it was all about. I came up to a conclusion that it had something to do with all of mankind, not just me. After that I just kept asking myself,"when it happens, do I become good or bad?". I didn't really know, so I figured that if i was supposed to be good I would be fighting to save people, if you know what I mean. I should also point out for this next bit, that I've always felt pretty in touch with nature. At one point in school, we had to write an essay on what we would achieve when we got older. I then wrote about how people pollute the earth, and that we had to stop it before we destroyed it completely (if you've ever heard of the Gaia hypothesis, it's like that). So at this point I figured that the right thing to do would be to kill everyone and let nature restore itself. But then after watching a bunch of documentaries on global warming and everything, that it wasn't as bad as I had initially thought, so I decided that killing everyone was a bit extreme and, for lack of a better word, disturbing. I figured that if I just knock out all of the power plants in the world and try to convince everyone to stop killing the planet then that would be a happily ever after ending. But then I realized that this whole act would be futile in the fact that if you stop something with violence, everybody would just rebel and keep going like before. That's when I came up with the solution of saving people as opposed to killing them. I just decided that either way, I wouldn't be living out the conventional "dream life". I used to want to be a zoologist, but now that seems about as real as a little kid wanting to be a footy player (oh, I should mention that I'm from Australia, so that's about as far away from reality as dream lifes get). Since then everything apart from the reality leading up to "the event" just seemed so... Imaginary and just unreal in general. I think that at some point in the next couple of years that there will be some sort of signal (basically just the anticipation feeling but a hell of a lot stronger) and at that point I will just leave my current life behind, ditch my family, go off the grid, and just go with whatever feels right after then. I have been training for the last two years in preparation of the signal feeling (I'm not sure if that is the actual event, or just a precursor up to the event telling us all to get ready). I have been doing martial arts four times a weak, been learning tactics that will help me survive and working on some pyrokinetic skills (if you don't know what that is, just google pyrokinesis). The only problem with this is that I can't concentrate on anything but "the event". This has become a serious problem owing to the fact that I no longer do my schoolwork and am in pretty serious danger of getting kept down. It just doesn't seem at all important or relevant to me. I pretty much feel that "the event" is what I'm supposed to do in life. Like all of you seem to, in my dreams of the future, I never seem to be very old, mostly below my mid thirties. This doesn't worry me at all though, because I know that "the event" will pretty much be my whole life. BTW when you hear me talking about dreams, I don't even really mean the dreams everyone has while they sleep. I almost never have that sort of dream. What I mean by dream is sort of like a movie, just in my head (like when you read a book, you form an image in your head). Another thing is that everything I have been talking about is that I have had to keep secret in fear of being deemed "not normal". Even now I am typing all of this on my iPod so my family doesn't find out about me. I just don't want them to be afraid of me and act all weird around me because of what's going on inside my head. My sister, who is two years older than me is already scared of me for having what I like to call a short fuse strapped to a hundred pounds of TNT. Yeah, i used to get angry pretty quickly (I've managed to fix that), and when I did get angry, I got kinda destructive (which I haven't really been able to fix). That originally got me concerned that "the feeling" (or whatever you want to call it) was just me losing it for good.
Anyway, I'm sorry if this is a bit of a long read, and if I scared you a bit during that bit about killing everyone. I had issues a couple of years back which I'm pretty much over now. Anyhow if you can tell me your thoughts about all of this and if you experienced anything above, that would really help.